Dolphin Heart World
Bringing
the Gifts of the Dolphins...
From Sea to Land
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From Sea To Land
Excerpt from Chapter 12 - Deep Dive The next day I awoke in a state of longing and grief that penetrated the core of my being. I was devastated about the conditions of my life. I was angry about being a human, about having to live my life away from the dolphins. I was crawling inside my skin, trying to get out. None of this made any sense to my conscious mind, yet I couldn't make these thoughts and emotions go away. I couldn't shake the despair. My questions were unceasing. Who am I, really? Am I a dolphin in a human body? How can that be? Why did I have to be a human in this lifetime? What is this all about? I was angry and confused. Part of me wanted desperately to return to the dolphins, in my dolphin form. At the same time, I was terrified that if I became a dolphin again, even energetically, I might not be strong enough to come back. The isolation was total. At that time, I knew of no other human who felt as I did. I thought I was going crazy. Meanwhile, a portal had opened up inside me, through which dolphin consciousness began to bubble forth and permeate my being. I began to remember, and know, what it was like to live as a dolphin. In my dolphin lives, our interactions with each other and our environment were loving, joyous and harmonious. We lived in a perpetual state of oneness, that elusive state of consciousness we humans spend entire lifetimes striving to attain. For dolphins, oneness is our natural state. As a dolphin, I was loved, loving, happy, deeply nourished and fulfilled. I became ultra sensitive to the cruelties and harshness we humans so casually inflict upon one another every day of our lives. With each infraction, large or small, I felt the pain of it in my body. How can we be so cruel? How can we be so hurtful to people we love? My desensitization to the human condition began to unravel. I frequently became so overwrought that I'd burst into tears. David would hear me, and he would come and hold me until I was empty inside. Neither of us knew what to do for me. There didn't seem to be an answer. For whatever reason, I needed to pass through these dark spaces. I needed to see what I was seeing, and feel what I was feeling. I vacillated between struggling with the dark side of humanity and embracing the bliss of my awakening dolphin nature. The contrast in quality of life between humans and dolphins was extreme. I preferred life as a dolphin. I wasn't at all sure where this was leading, and if it was, for that matter, a good thing for me. Every once in a while, I'd connect with another dolphin person and feel compelled to share the confusion, sadness and despair that I often felt. The other person would be silent. They would quietly reveal to me that they, too, feel that way sometimes. They, too, feel lost and alone, like they are living a life in which they don't belong. The loneliness can be devastating. Connecting with another human being who was experiencing the same kinds of feelings I was, as a result of a strong connection to dolphins, was an important discovery. Finding someone who could truly understand what I was going through, and vice versa, assured us that we weren't alone, and we weren't crazy. It was like we were lifelines for one another. Being that lifeline actually became a big part of my work. I spent a lot of time encouraging and supporting others in their journeys of self-discovery. In the ensuing years, I have had recurring bouts with apathy and depression. When I am not tuned into the dolphin frequency, I become depressed. When I tune into them by immersing myself in my work, it's like every circuit inside me is turned on. My energy is amazing, and I am passionate about life. The contrast is remarkable, and can be instantaneous. The first time this energy shift happened, the dolphins gave me a visual image to explain it. The 'before' image was an old rusty gas can with holes punched in it and gasoline (my energy) leaking out in all directions. When I plugged into the dolphin energy, instantaneously, right before my eyes, the gas can healed! The holes disappeared, the gas can transformed into a brand new, bright red, untarnished container, and the gasoline was harnessed and contained. I began to understand that I get depressed when I am not living in alignment with my true nature. Thanks to the dolphins, my body now knows, at the physical level, what life can be like. My soul yearns for that lighter, more loving and playful way of living and being. Anything else is unacceptable…anything else is downright painful. Yet, while I know this to be true, I still have those "should" tapes and limiting beliefs cycling through my mind…I should be more responsible. I should get a real job. I should be more serious. What do you think you're doing? You're wasting your life. When those tapes are running, and I allow them to influence me, I become depressed. Depression is my soul's way of getting my attention, of letting me know that my life is out of balance. My energy contrasts have proven to me, once and for all, that I am, indeed, fully and completely nourished and sustained by the frequency of the dolphins. It's my responsibility to keep myself plugged in to them, or I, and those around me, suffer the consequences. I still don't understand it, but I now know it to be true.
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